in which nat brings out the sappy sterek in me (not!fic):

gyzym: stiles will NEVER trust derek until scott does

nat: true true true

nat: but it still hurts me

gyzym: like i love stiles, but stiles has TWO PEOPLE

gyzym: HE REALLY TRUSTS

gyzym: AND ONE OF THEM IS HIS DAD, WHO HE DOESN’T REALLY TRUST

gyzym: SO IT’S REALLY

gyzym: JUST

gyzym: SCOTT

gyzym: thus, so long as scott doesn’t trust derek, stiles won’t either

gyzym: because that relationship is too important to him

nat: I love his total loyalty but I have such a hard time untangling the pain it causes him

nat: I just

nat: I really want to know WHY scott is the only person in his life

gyzym: oh, because his self-worth is so low

gyzym: scott’s been around long enough that stiles doesn’t worry about it with him

gyzym: stiles doesn’t worry that scott is going to leave him

gyzym: he worries scott is going to die, because he worries everyone is going to die, because of course he does

gyzym: constantly

gyzym: but he doesn’t worry that scott’s going to leave him if he’s not [whatever] enough

gyzym: and on some level

gyzym: he thinks everyone else will

gyzym: on some level he thinks his mother did

gyzym: because he was too young when it happened to recognize that it couldn’t possibly have been his fault

gyzym: he thinks it WAS his fault

gyzym: we saw him think it was his fault

gyzym: and that certainty has colored every relationship he’s had, or tried to have, since

gyzym: that’s why it’s working out with the werewolf stuff

gyzym: because these situations come up where they NEED him, inarguably

gyzym: and it’s okay to be around if he’s of use

nat: you’re breaking my heart all over again

gyzym: STILES IS A HEARTBREAKER

gyzym: but it’s okay

gyzym: because here’s what’s going to happen, right

gyzym: in my headcanon

gyzym: for derek and stiles

gyzym: like my real

gyzym: actual

gyzym: long-term one

gyzym: that i may write into a fic once the season ends

gyzym: and i finish this ridiculous mess of an AU

gyzym: is that stiles and derek do start trusting each other, right, largely becausescott and derek comes to this tentative pack sort of agreement and stiles is like

gyzym: GREAT

gyzym: THAT’S AWESOME

gyzym: CAN WE CONCENTRATE ON

gyzym: ALL THE BIGGER PROBLEMS

gyzym: NOW THAT YOU GUYS ARE DONE WITH THE IN-FIGHTING

gyzym: and derek’s kind of wrecked in the wake of how badly he fucked up this season, right

nat: SO BADLY OMG

nat: DEREK

nat: YOU

nat: *GOOBER*

gyzym: i mean, derek’s always kind of wrecked, but in this case i mean his confidence as an alpha

gyzym: I KNOW HE’S TERRIBLE

gyzym: AT EVERYTHING

gyzym: but so when stiles is like

gyzym: HELLO I AM GOING TO LOOK AT ALL OF THESE THINGS

gyzym: AND DEVELOP SOME *PLANS*

gyzym: WITH THE INPUT OF *EVERYONE*

gyzym: LIKE AN *ADULT*

gyzym: DEREK IS LIKE ….WELL FINE IF YOU WANT

gyzym: I GUESS THAT WOULDN’T BE

gyzym: A TERRIBLE THING FOR YOU TO DO

gyzym: NOT THAT I’M ENCOURAGING YOU

gyzym: OR NEED YOUR HELP

gyzym: IN ANY WAY

gyzym: JUST NOT ACTIVELY PLANNING ON KILLING YOU FOR DOING IT, YOU KNOW

nat: GLOWER

gyzym: but then it turns out that stiles’ plans are like…helpful

gyzym: and workable

gyzym: and there were humans in derek’s pack, before

nat: the tragedy continues

gyzym: and he remembers

gyzym: that part of the reason for that was this….clarity

gyzym: that the wolf is always preventing him from reaching

gyzym: because as hard as derek tries he rides on so much instinct

gyzym: and so much of his instinct was corrupted

gyzym: by the fire and what happened after

gyzym: by all these boundaries and rules he understood as factual getting literally reduced to ashes

gyzym: so now in addition to riding on instinct

gyzym: he DOUBTS

gyzym: his every instinct

gyzym: and that makes it so hard for him to find a rational solution, ever

gyzym: because he can’t even claw his way past his gut response, because he’s too busy arguing with himself about it

gyzym: but the thing is, having humans in the pack helps that problem a little, the caught-in-instinct problem, because humans don’t run the way wolves do

gyzym: they don’t heal and they don’t change but they also have more inherent control over themselves

gyzym: over their thought patterns

gyzym: and stiles is helpful

gyzym: and eventually this all comes to a head because derek, i don’t know

gyzym: runs into somebody he used to know (SOMEBODAAAAAAY)

gyzym: or something

gyzym: runs into some piece of his old life

gyzym: and it just hits him

gyzym: that he’s running this pack by the skin of his teeth

gyzym: that they’re surviving on a combination of dumb luck

gyzym: and brute strength

gyzym: and stiles’ plans

gyzym: and boyd’s common sense

gyzym: and one of these days it’s not going to be enough

nat: bfhdsjafbdhjlbfhdjabnd,vbcjkxlzld

nat: cnhjbvchjxzbcds

nat: TELL ME EVERYTHING

nat: (SOMEBODAAAAAAAAY OMG)

gyzym: one of these days someone’s going to come along who is bigger or stronger or smarter, some day he’s going to run out of luck and so he goes to stiles’ house

gyzym: and just kind of breaks in through the window and stiles doesn’t even like

gyzym: flinch

gyzym: at all

gyzym: is just like, what is it this time

gyzym: is it a kraken because if it’s a kraken i win the pool

gyzym: and derek says

gyzym: i don’t know what to do

gyzym: i don’t know what i’m doing

gyzym: and stiles is like

gyzym: ….um, dude, did you think….i missed that memo?

nat: ….KRAKEN

gyzym: what did you think i was doing all this time, trying to get a college credit in occult studies, i know, i get it, you’re clueless

gyzym: and derek is like YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND EVERYONE IS GOING TO DIE AND IT WILL BE ALL MY FAULT

gyzym: and stiles kind of

gyzym: puts some stuff together

gyzym: about death and blame and how that works, because stiles KNOWS how that works

gyzym: and he could like, say something about it or whatever

nat: derek is totally not ready to hear that

nat: well maybe at that point

nat: he might be

nat: I don’t know

gyzym: no, he’s not, and stiles knows that, and kind of doubts derek wants to hear him wax rhapsodic on the ills of the human condition—werewolf condition—whatever

gyzym: in any case

gyzym: so he just says

gyzym: okay, well, we could like

gyzym: ….come up with a new training schedule

gyzym: and you could tell me where to go to find information on this that isn’t the internet

gyzym: or tell me what YOU know, since i’m not, you know, a teenage lycanthrope, so telling me stuff i shouldn’t try isn’t likely to make me try it

gyzym: unless you bite me

gyzym: which, please don’t

gyzym: also, would you like a sandwich

gyzym: also, there’s doc deaton, you could explain about doc deaton

nat: …food is love

nat: YES

gyzym: and derek just kind of like

gyzym: lets

gyzym: stiles

gyzym: make him a sandwich

gyzym: and tells him werewolf stuff

nat: TELL STILES WHAT THE DEAL IS WITH DEATON

gyzym: i KNOW RIGHT

gyzym: but they start doing that, right

gyzym: stiles makes food

gyzym: and derek tells him werewolf things

gyzym: and sometimes they watch movies or whatever

gyzym: only, in telling stiles werewolf things

gyzym: sometimes derek ends up, by necessity

gyzym: telling stiles things about his family

gyzym: his pack

gyzym: because that’s how he KNOWS

gyzym: werewolf stuff

gyzym: and honestly i think it’s part of why he’s so bad at teaching—it’s too painful for him

gyzym: to teach these kids

gyzym: the way he was taught

gyzym: in part because he was so young, but in part because to teach them the way he was taught he has to REMEMBER

nat: we are totally on the same page on that one

nat: because teaching is passing on experience

gyzym: but stiles is right, the more information he gives out the easier it will be to keep everyone alive

gyzym: and it’s just stiles

gyzym: and it’s kind of hard to feel like he’s confessing to like

gyzym: great and terrible crimes and the indirect murder of his entire family and all these feelings he can’t have because he’ll drown in them if he lets himself have them he just has to keep running from them just because he’s back in beacon hills doesn’t mean he can’t run

gyzym: because it’s STILES

gyzym: and half the time he listens with his mouth half-open and roast beef like, visible

gyzym: inside of it

gyzym: and he asks ridiculous questions

gyzym: like, constantly

nat: because he’s STILES

nat: who has never, ever backed down

gyzym: yes!! and then one time out of nowhere they’re driving down the main drag of beacon hills and they pass this ice cream shop

gyzym: and stiles says, you know, i haven’t gone in there since my mom died

gyzym: she used to take me every saturday

gyzym: and then quickly changes the subject with a well-timed, ooh, look, I THINK I SEE THE GOLEM

gyzym: but derek kind of…holds onto that little piece of information, right, and the way stiles smelled when it slipped out of him

gyzym: a little shocked, a little afraid, the faintest hint of the salt-smell he associates with human sadness

nat: AHFJDSKFHDJKS

nat: never ever have I wished for a more acute sense of smell, bb

gyzym: I DON’T EVEN HAVE A SENSE OF SMELL

gyzym: I WAS BORN WITHOUT ONE

gyzym: THE SMELL THING IN THIS FANDOM IS GREAT FOR ME

gyzym: BECAUSE I CAN GET IT WRONG

gyzym: AND CRY WEREWOLF

gyzym: but it’s sort of easier after that, right, because there’s sort of this barrier that’s come down a little, and derek wouldn’t ever say out loud that he trusts stiles but is also becoming unsettlingly aware that he does anyway, whether he’ll admit it or not, and they keep going on like this, and stiles’ seventeenth birthday comes and goes

gyzym: and it gets to the point where derek spends most of his time with stiles and boyd, because boyd’s his second, but derek’s relationship with boyd isn’t like the one with stiles

gyzym: because derek remembers what it is to relate to and interact in an alpha-to-beta kind of way, and a first-to-second kind of way, and, really, in a laura-to-derek kind of way, even if he was always on the other side

nat: I FREAKING LOVE BOYD HE NEEDS MORE SCREENTIME

nat: but yes, go on, TELL ME EVERYTHING

gyzym: and boyd’s a werewolf, and has taken to it better than the others, and derek wouldn’t hesitate to say he trusted boyd (to save his life, to make the right call, to be his second, even to support him, which is sort of something derek never thought he’d be able to think about anyone again)

gyzym: and he doesn’t know what that means, exactly

gyzym: why the idea of trusting stiles, even though he knows he does, scares him

gyzym: because if trusting boyd doesn’t scare him

gyzym: trusting stiles shouldn’t either

gyzym: because he’s known stiles longer, and while boyd is a werewolf and stiles isn’t, and boyd is by default more reliable than stiles is in a lot of ways, derek has a bigger advantage over stiles that he does over boyd, because werewolf vs. human is different than werewolf vs. werewolf, even if you’re the alpha

gyzym: and you know derek looks at the world that way, like, “could i fight my way out if i had to”

gyzym: so the point is, it’s clearly not just the trust thing

gyzym: it’s clearly something ABOUT STILES

gyzym: and it’s only after derek comes

gyzym: to THAT conclusion

gyzym: that he recognizes the sexual/romantic intent there

gyzym: because DEREK’S SEXUAL AWARENESS WAS HIDEOUSLY AND HORRIBLY AND TRAUMATICALLY STUNTED WHEN HE WAS FIFTEEN FUCKING YEARS OLD

gyzym: AND IT WOULD TAKE HIM

gyzym: A LONG TIME

gyzym: TO RECOGNIZE ROMANTIC FEELINGS

gyzym: AFTER THAT

gyzym: and yeah sometimes he’s smelled attraction on stiles

nat: HE HAS NEVER ACTIVELY CONFRONTED WHAT HAPPENED WITH KATE, IT’S IN THE SHOW THAT HE NEVER TOLD ANYBODY

gyzym: YES

gyzym: HE’S *NEVER* HANDLED IT

nat: IT’S ALL JUST

nat: IN THERE

gyzym: and like, he just figured, when he smelled stiles’ boners, that stiles was a teenage boy

gyzym: and just, you know, prone to that sort of thing

gyzym: but now that he’s aware of it he’s like oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck

gyzym: because a) the idea of romantic involvement scares him

gyzym: b) he equates sex to THE LITERAL MURDER OF HIS ENTIRE FAMILY

gyzym: and c) does this make him kate?

gyzym: so he avoids stiles for like

gyzym: three weeks

gyzym: and after the first week boyd is like

gyzym: dude stiles knows you’re avoiding him

gyzym: and he is obnoxious about it

nat: oh fucking hell, of course he would think that being attracted to Stiles means

nat: he’s doing what kate did

gyzym: but so boyd is all like, stiles is being a pain in my ass, and derek is like whatever i don’t care ALPHAS DON’T HAVE FEELINGS and boyd is like, look man

gyzym: you are my alpha and everything

gyzym: but like

gyzym: if you don’t

gyzym: deal with this

gyzym: and he keeps

gyzym: bothering me?

gyzym: I AM GOING TO FORCIBLY MAKE IT YOUR PROBLEM

gyzym: THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY

gyzym: TO BE FOLLOWED AROUND BY STILINSKI

gyzym: GOING “WHY ISN’T DEREK ANSWERING MY CALLS/COMING OVER/WHATEVER”

gyzym: I AM YOUR SECOND NOT YOUR ANSWERING MACHINE

gyzym: and derek is like fine i’ll deal with it

gyzym: and runs off and hides in the woods like a crazy person instead

gyzym: only eventually stiles finds him

gyzym: because stiles is stiles

gyzym: and worked out how

gyzym: I DON’T HAVE TO KNOW DETAILS IT’S NOT A FIC YET

gyzym: and stiles is like so

gyzym: did i offend you

gyzym: or your werewolf senses

gyzym: have i switched laundry detergents to a degree you find unbearable

gyzym: are you having some kind of

gyzym: stoic manly i’m-secretly-dying type crisis

gyzym: is it my hair?

gyzym: is it my shoes.

nat: AHAHA DEREK THE CRAZY WOOD HERMIT IN THE THROES OF A ROMANTIC CRISIS IF I DON’T LAUGH I’LL CRY

gyzym: and stiles just KEEPS LISTING THINGS

gyzym: THAT IT COULD BE

gyzym: UNTIL EVENTUALLY DEREK IS LIKE

gyzym: FOR GOD’S SAKE STILES SHUT UP

gyzym: and stiles is like, oh, so it’s my VOICE

gyzym: and sits down next to him

gyzym: and derek is like, can’t you just…let it go

gyzym: and stiles is like, you mean, let go of the six months where we worked together and were doing the whole team thing and you told me i was pack and nobody bit the big one

gyzym: no, dude

gyzym: world doesn’t revolve around you

gyzym: you can’t just VANISH INTO THE WOODS because you don’t want to talk to me

gyzym: or to anyone else about why you don’t want to talk to me

gyzym: that’s not like, good alpha behavior

nat: use your words, derek

gyzym: YES EXACTLY

gyzym: and then stiles is like

gyzym: so now we’re going to sit here

gyzym: and you’re going to tell me what’s wrong

gyzym: or you’re going to run away again

gyzym: and i’m going to chase you down

gyzym: tenaciously

gyzym: because tenacity is like, my whole thing

gyzym: my great life skill

gyzym: and eventually you’re going to tell me

gyzym: or SOMEONE

gyzym: because this cannot go on

gyzym: and so derek kind of

gyzym: waffles about it

gyzym: and yells

gyzym: and throws sticks out into the woods

gyzym: and carves up a tree with his claws

gyzym: and then….tells him

gyzym: like, not even nearly all of it

nat: he has A TANTRUM OH MY GOD

gyzym: OF COURSE HE DOES

nat: BECAUSE HE IS KIND OF STILL 15

nat: SOMEWHERE

gyzym: HE HAS A HUGE

gyzym: WEREWOLF

gyzym: SHITFIT

gyzym: THAT STILES JUST WATCHES

gyzym: LEANING AGAINST A TREE

gyzym: WITH HIS ARMS CROSSED

gyzym: AND THIS TIGHT EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE

gyzym: AND NO FEAR SMELL AT ALL

gyzym: but derek tells stiles about kate

gyzym: the like

gyzym: reader’s digest version of the reader’s digest version

gyzym: like i’m pretty sure he just says

gyzym: kate argent and i…dated. when i was your age. younger than you. a little.

gyzym: and stiles fills in most of the gaps just from that

gyzym: because: stiles

nat: crazy smart stiles

gyzym: but the only gap

gyzym: he doesn’t fill in

gyzym: is the one where derek wants to date him

gyzym: because that’s not something that has ever

gyzym: even

gyzym: OCCURRED

gyzym: to stiles

gyzym: because derek is hideously attractive and in his twenties and stiles can’t even get kids in high school to look at him twice

gyzym: so he’s all, so, uh

gyzym: why is this…a problem…now? she hasn’t like, risen from the dead, right

gyzym: because i’m really over people rising from the dead

gyzym: let alone HER, although i guess now it would be kind of satisfying to watch her die again

gyzym: and derek is like

gyzym: i don’t want to put you in a position you don’t want to be in

gyzym: and stiles is like, dude, if kate argent rises from the dead i’m kind of going to be a position i don’t want to be in no matter WHAT

gyzym: and derek is like THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEAN STILES

nat: although I will totally help you kill the shit out of her

gyzym: truth

gyzym: SUCH TRUTH

gyzym: and stiles is like

gyzym: what

gyzym: …oh

gyzym: …OH

gyzym: …dude what makes you think i wouldn’t….

gyzym: …oh my god how long has that…

gyzym: …YOU RAN OFF AND HID IN THE WOODS INSTEAD OF JUST…

nat: USING YOUR WORDS

gyzym: …oh but i guess with the other thing that makes…oh, shit, this is really fucked up for you, isn’t it

gyzym: and derek is just like

gyzym: yes

gyzym: because

gyzym: yes

gyzym: it is

gyzym: and stiles is like, does it help if i’ve totally been hard for you since, like, day one, even if day one it was kind of in a scary way?

gyzym: and derek is like NOT REALLY STILES

gyzym: and stiles is like

gyzym: do you think doc deaton does werewolf therapy

gyzym: and derek just

gyzym: looks

gyzym: at him

gyzym: and stiles is like WHAT MAN OKAY WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO HERE THIS IS KIND OF A LOT FOR A GUY TO PROCESS AFTER HIKING THREE HOURS THROUGH THE UNDERBRUSH AND WATCHING YOU MANHANDLE AN INNOCENT BIRCH TREE

nat: WHAT DID THE TREE DO TO YOU DEREK: NOTHING, THAT’S WHAT

gyzym: and derek just kind of

gyzym: drops his head into his hands

gyzym: and doesn’t say anything

gyzym: because his instincts are a mess

gyzym: and his everything is a mess

gyzym: and as much as he shouldn’t

gyzym: he’s gotten really used to stiles

gyzym: sorting out the complicated problems

gyzym: and presenting derek just

gyzym: the potential solutions

gyzym: and letting derek make the decisions from there

nat: I wonder when the last time he cried was? I’m not saying he’d even be able to at this point, I am just having stray thoughts

gyzym: it was a LONG time ago

gyzym: before the fire

gyzym: he whines in his sleep, sometimes

gyzym: but that’s the closest he gets

gyzym: but anyway, he just kind of drops his head into his hands

gyzym: and after a few minutes he feels stiles’ palm go to the back of his neck and start rubbing, and he almost says something about how werewolves aren’t DOGS, stiles, but he doesn’t, because in this one specific respect there are some concidental similarities and he knows he doesn’t have hackles in this form but he can feel them going down anyway

gyzym: and stiles, really quietly, says, you know what, we spend most of our time defeating cartoon-type monsters

gyzym: so i think we can probably…figure this out

gyzym: like, it’ll probably take awhile

gyzym: because cartoon monsters

gyzym: and also i am….really, super out of my depth

gyzym: like, so out of my depth, derek

gyzym: like my depth was leagues and leagues ago and i just kept swimming and—uh. but.

gyzym: it would…i’d like it. a lot. if we could figure it out

gyzym: without it like, breaking your brain. or mine. or anybody’s.

gyzym: but mostly i’d like it if you came out of the woods….?

gyzym: and derek doesn’t move

gyzym: but he nods

gyzym: and means

gyzym: in a minute

gyzym: and stiles kind of hums his agreement and, for once in his life

gyzym: shuts the hell up

gyzym: and just kind of

gyzym: keeps rubbing for awhile

nat: lets him work it out

nat: in his own time

gyzym: yes yes yes

gyzym: and admittedly working some things out himself

nat: because Stiles is crazy smart, but also really perceptive, emotionally? I think, anyway

gyzym: I AGREE

gyzym: and also

gyzym: stiles a) hadn’t realized derek was a possibility and b) because of that, hadn’t thought through how to handle the potential of derek and his myriad issues

gyzym: but now he’s thinking about it

gyzym: and when they get back he starts reading about like, assorted and sundry issues, because stiles/research for lyfe

gyzym: and so they sort of start…not exactly dating

gyzym: like it’s pretty much exactly the way it was before

gyzym: except now sometimes stiles touches derek

gyzym: or lets derek touch him

gyzym: and derek touches his pack a lot

gyzym: especially on moons and hunts

gyzym: because it’s a physical relationship, an alpha and his pack

gyzym: and so that’s sort of what happens first, is that they start doing THAT kind of touching

nat: of course it is, but that must also be so difficult for Derek, whose ideas of pack are also family and loss

gyzym: which is more contact than derek has had with a human since before the fire

gyzym: yes yes yes

gyzym: like

gyzym: he touches the pack but it’s

gyzym: because he has to

gyzym: and never any more than that

nat: and I will eat my left shoe if he isn’t desperately touch-starved

gyzym: DESPERATELY

nat: but also really, really gun-shy

nat: in that respect

gyzym: and like, that comes out with stiles after a few weeks

gyzym: like the first couple of weeks it’s really

gyzym: tentative

gyzym: and hesitant

gyzym: and derek pulling back a lot

gyzym: and STILES pulling back a lot because he thinks derek wants him to

gyzym: and then one night derek like

gyzym: narrowly averts death

gyzym: and shows up at stiles’

gyzym: and stiles’ dad is out for the weekend

gyzym: and stiles is in his living room watching a movie

gyzym: and derek just kind of

gyzym: crashes down next to him on the couch

gyzym: and stiles looks at him out of the corner of his eye

gyzym: and then looks at him HARD

gyzym: and then looks at the movie for a minute

gyzym: and then kind of sighs and like

gyzym: grabs derek’s sleeve, without looking at him

gyzym: and tugs on it

gyzym: and derek wonders when he worked it out about the eye contact thing

gyzym: and the control piece of that

gyzym: because humans don’t, usually

gyzym: even the humans that had been pack, before

nat: it’s not obvious, given the value humans place on eye contact

gyzym: yes! and even humans derek’s known in the past hadn’t really understood that eye contact and smiling registered a little differently for the wolf in him

gyzym: but stiles doesn’t look at him

gyzym: doesn’t bare-teeth-i-mean-smile

gyzym: he just keeps his eyes on the screen

gyzym: and tugs at derek’s sleeve

gyzym: until derek kind of gives in and leans over

gyzym: fits his face into the curve of stiles’ neck

gyzym: and he just means to do it for a second, right

gyzym: let himself have a second of it, stiles’ familiar scent and the warmth of being touched by another body

nat: but once he’s there

nat: it’s just this huge relief

nat: ?

gyzym: yeah, once he starts he finds he can’t stop

gyzym: once he’s there it’s like his whole body just

gyzym: collapses

gyzym: around stiles’

gyzym: and he’s digging in and pressing his face in closer and if he weren’t so exhausted he’d probably be….something

gyzym: embarrassed, upset, frightened, something

gyzym: but in some ways it’s not unlike the relief of a change on a full moon

gyzym: like there’s been this thing tugging at him all day—all month—all his life

gyzym: and now he can finally release himself to it

gyzym: and above him, stiles huffs out a ghosting sort of laugh and is like

gyzym: that figures

gyzym: it figures that you are, deep down, a champion at cuddling

gyzym: here i sit, with my kid gloves and my coordination issues and this, you know, sort of not-exactly-but-kind-of-totally constant thought that i am just

gyzym: totally fucking this up

gyzym: and you’re holding out on me with the cuddling skills

gyzym: that’s really not fair, derek

nat: bfdhajlgfhdjlfdhslfghdsj

gyzym: and derek almost doesn’t catch what he’s saying

gyzym: because stiles’ fingers are in his hair

gyzym: and stiles is talking, because he’s always talking, but he’s using this

gyzym: new voice

gyzym: the one derek is only just starting to get to know

gyzym: with these softer harmonics and these carefully rounded out vowels

gyzym: so he mostly misses it

gyzym: but he catches enough of it to say, you’re not fucking it up